I'm from the Island of Misfit Toys... and you?

Haha so i hope everyone read the title of this post. It came to me after listening to the Glee Christmas album and they sing "The Most Wonderful Day of the Year". I really could have seen myself in a former lifetime being a toy on that island. I'm a toy, just a very individual and "special" toy! So the holidays are upon us and today I finally finished all of my Christmas cards. I say finally because I bought these cards in mid-November and I absolutely love them! They have a picture from my favorite country on it and a picture from MSU! So I can basically say, that its two of my favorite places in the world (and two of the places that I miss the most too ironically)!

Until last year, my holidays have been for the most part, a joyous, routine occasion. That started to change last year and I know that the changes are going to continue this year's holidays festivities too. I think I'm finally starting to grasp the whole concept of being a real, self-sustaining individual, and yes I am aware that I still live at home, but it's a start. It's the whole accepting part of being a real person is what I think I'm still missing.

I've had a very unsettled feeling in my head and heart since May. I don't know how to define myself anymore. Definitely no longer a student; I'm not even working in the field of my college degree. Not that I am ungrateful for any of this, I've just always been able to find a defining characteristic for myself. And as of now, I have none. I guess it's as Buddha says, "The only constant in life is change." My life in 2010 has been beyond anything I have experienced as far as changes go. I graduated from college, left my independence and moved back in with my parents, started a full time job that I enjoyed at X, and now are experiencing a lot more negative changes at X, my friendships have been tested as I graduated and the list goes on and on. Leave a comment if you'd like to ask me more and I'll definitely answer. I have plenty of examples for 2010, they're not all necessarily negative, there has just been an influx of changes.

I really have tried to take all of these changes in stride. I've also been very resistant to some of the changes too and how they affect my relationships with people. I have much to learn from life, and if this year has been any indication, at least it's going to be an interesting ride! I'm going to have to start challenging myself more though in order to get the fullest that life has to offer. I don't know how or where to start, but I guess even before 2011 begins, I have a tall order as my resolution: Work to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom and courage to find more direction in my life and hopefully helping others along the way.

I'm leaving a picture of my feet, cause I'm hoping that my head and heart are going to help move them into wonderful new directions!